Interesting email I thought I would share

Subject: A shout out from an admirer from DU
Date: Tues, 9 Oct 2007 11:49:14
From: Sharon XXXXXXX
To: XXXXXXXX.net.au

Dear foreigncorrespondent,

I am sorry to see that you have left DU. DU will be all the worse for
not having you there any longer. You were one of the constant
international gay voices standing up for gay rights in the USA.

I won't try and talk you into returning to DU, I understand after reading your blog why you felt it necessary to leave. Very honourable decision you made. Your x-partner and her new girlfriend should feel very lucky that you made the decision to leave, saving all three of you from being banned, had things become messy.

The link to your blog is slowly making its way around DU, as well as the news as to who your x-partner is now seeing. They both are now on my ignore list. Your x-partner should be ashamed of herself for how she has treated you through all of this. And then not even waiting an honourable year after relationship break up to begin again. Your x-partner disgusts me the most. As for BTFS, she should have kept her distance, until that years grace was over.

I feel very sorry for you though. You have been run through the mill, with the loss of your relationship and subsequent anonymous emails. People can be very cruel, but you are doing all us Australians proud by being strong and truthful.

Your x-partner must be blind to have let you get away like she has. All the better for the lucky Australian girl who will one day win your heart.

I am not a lesbian, but if I was, I would now be chasing you to win your heart, because your heart is golden and true.

After reading the most recent of emails you receive I can just say, if it is true that she is still in love with you, that under no circumstances do you take her back. You would only be leaving yourself open to more hurt. People like her do not know what the word love means, or what the word commitment means, so you would never have a full life with her anyway.

I have added your blog to my bookmarks, and hope you continue blogging, and continue blogging about Australia like you have. The state of our country needs to be aired as well.

Take care of yourself, fc.
Your fellow Australian,
Sharon

I haven't responded to Sharon personally. It is very rare I do personally respond to emails nowadays. There are only a select handful of people I do respond directly to. So, Sharon, I hope you don't mind but I will respond to you here.

I have received several emails from people telling me DU is worse off now without my being there, why? I don't know. But it is nice to know there are some people out there who miss me, and conisder me a strong voice.

I have already broken the hearts of several DUers who have constantly asked me to return to DU, by telling them fc won't be returning at all. I just wish Skinner would abide by my requests and finally put the tombstone next to my name, so it stops causing confusion for others.

I know my leaving DU was for the right reasons. I didn't want to see things get out of hand like they did with another three DUers who have since been TS'd. And with my still having feelings for my ex, it is best I stay away. I just hope she appreciates the sacrifice I have made.

I am surprised the news of their relationship and my link haven't made it around DU much faster. After all, it is a genuine DU scandal involving three very strong voices of DU, which people over there thrive on. On top of that, my blog has direct information about the scandal in it.

You must be in the ear of my mother, Sharon. LOL She asked me just last week if I would take J back given the opportunity. I told her then and there, I cannot answer that question because I really don't know. Now a week later, I still don't know. But this time I am conflicted between what my heart tells me and what my brain tells me.

I know I would look like a total fool if I did, but I also know love makes fools out of us all. So that is a question that will have to remain answered as it is, probably for the rest of my life.

As for how she has treated me. The funny thing is, only my family know everything. I have never made everything completely public and I won't, out of the respect I still have for her. But I will say, my mum is hugely disappointed in her. She feels J could have handled the entire situation from first dumping me, right through to how she announced it to me of her new relationship a lot differently. As mum says, emails are just too cold. She should have dealt with everything through the phone. But as I say to mum, the phone adds intimacy and J wouldn't have been able to go through with it any other way apart from email. And that is why she has refused to have direct contact with me since my birthday this year.

I do believe she is running away from the problems we had. And that she has done it all for the wrong reasons. But I can't change her mind, not now that there is another person involved.

I won't talk about the other person at all, but having J on ignore will only prove to be your own loss. Where do you think I got my voice from? She was the one person who inspired me the most in this world. Hell I am stuggling to build my Web site, because the inspiration is lacking. Talking about Australia in my blog is one thing, but talking about the U.S. or even gay rights is another thing all together. And I am noticing I don't have the voice for either I used to have.

As for anyone who will be lucky enough to win my heart... well I am so popular my mum and sister have to beat them off with brooms, NOT. Relationships for me are just not happening. I live in the scrub now, where every woman looks like a butch bulldyke. The lesbians I do come across are either too young or tourists, or moving away.

And on top of that, I don't know if I want to give my heart out again. I gave it out and had it crushed. I don't want to go through that again.

And don't worry, so long as I am capable, my blog will be here.

Thanks for the email, and all emails I receive.

FC